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recent read : Gentle Daisy (Dengeki Daisy)

gentle daisy is quite an interesting manga. it's about a girl whose brother died, and all that he left her is a handphone, which she will use to message an individual named daisy. daisy's role in the girl's life is to cheer her up with kind words and to protect her from any incoming danger.

that's the element that captured my interest.

once i had my own daisy, who constantly cherish me with kind words, and to stay with me during the worst moments in my life, all through text messages. i know that seemed impossible, but i was there once. and somehow, not knowing (in real life) the person at the end of the line give you freedom to tell them just about everything. and that was enough for me, to have someone listened to my problems and knowing that actually this person care to listen to my unnecessary ramblings.

but i became greedy, and i took our relationship to the next level. real-life level.

right now, i know i have made the right choice. but that action, actually cause me to lose my own daisy. knowing someone in real life, no matter how special that relationship turned out to be, barred me from spilling everything out to the person. no matter how badly i want to. and i AM bad with spoken words, especially when i'm frustrated or angry, which will cause things i said to be taken for another meaning. so i stayed silent most of the times.

so.. i kinda missed having my own daisy back.

though it may be improbable, or even impossible. 

p/s : if you read this, don't misunderstand.

  

calories please be kind to me

i've had weight issue since i was a kid. i think i did eat a lot more compared to my other siblings, which in turn makes me the fattest of 'em all. T_T not the title anyone wants, isn't it.

however in recent time, i kinda realized that i should do something about it. i don't wanna end up growing old fat and eventually forced by the doctor to jog around the park every morning just for the sake of my health when i should fill my retirement years with relaxing and other stuff i should be doing by then.

i did lose some weight, thanks to a simple breakfast i took from february to june, though occasionally i was defeated by the nasi lemak and fried mee hoon sold at the ground level of the hostel. i need to lose at least another 17 kg more to achieve my ideal weight. wow. now that i'm typing it out here, that number sure seems like a LOT. 

so with the semester holiday, i'm staying at home, and once again defeated by all kinds of delicious breakfast sold around my house ( my family don't cook our own breakfast, we buy them most of the time ). and i stopped with my breakfast scheme.

and ramadhan came. i know lots of people see this month as an opportunity to eat less, but after seven days, i see no changes. but still, fortunately i maintained the weight from june until now. PHEW! 

so calories, please be kind to me. let me consume a little less of you guys, and can you please please please burnt off a little quicker when i'm doing anything in my sedentary lifestyle? gosh i sound so lazy and BAD. but that's just who i really am. a lazy girl hoping to shed some more weight so she can do a little krav maga. heh. i wish.

goodbye rainbows and butterflies

this may be permanent or temporary

to me, it may be a phase or not

i really don't know

but for the time being

i'll just be an abandoned name

and may it stay that way

for my own sake

oh! hitam

oh, hitam

saya mau hitam

hitam dengan siapa?

mau hitam saja

oh, hitam

saya mau hitam

kucing pakai baju biru

sangat comel, budak busuk

kucing pakai baju biru

sangat comel, budak busuk

LOL! 

i'll never know how i got the idea to create such lyric :P anyways, hitam @ abanghitam is the newest addition to the long list of my family cats. i have known him for long because he stayed in rajawali block in UPM's second college, but i never thought i'd really be able to bring him home. surprisingly, my parents allowed me to do so, while my sister... let's just say she's a sucker for cats too.

in the hostel, he sometimes would come to my room and eat ( i keep a big bottle of kibbles for stray cats) and maybe stay for a while for a nap or just 'smelling around', you know, the things cats do everyday. i like him very much because he was SO LAZY. he's the kind of cat that would stare at you with that lazy look and prefer laying around sleeping that chasing people around. though sometimes i think i'm allergic to him, and that made me rethink back if i really wanna bring him home.

anyway, i mentioned about him to my mother, and though she wasn't too much into bringing an already grown cat home, but i didn't give up. when the day came for me to go back to johor, i showed him to my mother and sister. i guess he's likeable (EEK!) and long story short, we brought him along in our 3 hours journey home. luckily he didn't pee or poop in my father's car. PHEW!

anyway, the blue shirt is actually babies' apparel. i found it in a sale in The Store Batu Pahat for RM2. A great bargain, when all the cats apparel i found online is more than RM10 and Daiso is nowhere near where i'm living right now. 

:D

i know exercising has its own risks, but one that involves the BRAIN??? and i sometimes have headache after a session.. T_T

EXERTION HEADACHE. 

What actually occurs is that the blood vessels in your brain expand beyond their normal thresholds which puts pressure on the meninges (small nerves that cover the brain) which causes the painful headache. The headache subsides once the heart rate drops along with the blood pressure, but the headache lingers because the meninges remain extra sensitive. 

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Typically exertion headaches occur when a combination of the following circumstances are true:

1. You're Dehydrated: Dehydration thickens your blood

2. Valsalva (Holding Breath): This causes a dramatic spike in blood pressure

3. Poor Neck Position: Anything other than a neutral spine causes constrictions on the Carotid Arteries, the main arteries that deliver blood to the brain.

4. Increased Heart Rate: As a set progresses, your heart rate will steadily climb so that by the end of your set it can be close to (or above) your maximal heart rate.

5. Heavy Weight on Body: The more weight you have on your body, the more your blood pressure will rise as you exert yourself lifting it. Because legs are the strongest muscle group in the body, you typically lift more weight with your legs. The correlation with heavy weight and an increase in blood pressure makes compound leg movements more risky than other movements.

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To prevent an exertion headache:

1. BE Hydrated: Drink enough water that you're piss is white the day before your lift and the day of, and drink water during your workout.

2. NEVER Hold Your Breath: Most good lifters pride themselves on having good form. When I'm working with a client, in addition to proper mechanics, I include proper breathing as a requirement for a rep to count. "Your holding your breath, that rep doesn't count."

3. Maintain a NEUTRAL SPINE: Unless you're performing a neck exercise, there is no need for your neck to be bent. Let it be comfortable and neutral and focus on the target muscle.

4. Allow for RECOVERY/ do CARDIO: First of all, do some cardio to condition your heart and lungs to be able to work hard. This will prevent the body from being too shocked on rep 9 and 10 on those Squats! 

Second of all, give yourself enough time between sets and exercises for your heart rate to come down. You shouldn't jump in to the next set or exercise while your heart is pounding. Not only will you not perform as well because your cardiovascular system will fatigue before the muscle your training, but you will also put yourself at risk for the headache. As a general rule, any time you're doing a heavy compound movement, especially on legs, make sure your heart rate is comfortable before you begin the set.

5. Single-Leg, Single Joint / It is what it is: Try doing some single-leg leg extensions before you do your squats to pre-fatigue them so they go to failure sooner. Also, single joint leg movements can help you isolate the quads and ham strings so you can strengthen them through their entire range of motion which will help your Squat/Deadlift. However, it is what it is. As long as you can handle the heavy weight with good form, you should do it. It is what it is. Heavy weight on the squat bar/leg press/hack machine is GOING to cause an increase in your blood pressure. As long as 1-4 are good to go, move whatever weight you can control with good form.

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Remember, an EXERTION HEADACHE is an INJURY TO THE BRAIN. If not taken seriously, it won't go away and can become worse. Just like any other injury in the gym, certain steps must be taken to transition the body back to a high performance level again.

rambles rambles rambles.... and a request from a friend :3

it's holiday season (bazillionth YAY!) which means it's time for frequent drawing sessions. for this holiday, i try to find pictures that i can translate directly into pieces of drawing. most of the time, the subject would be women, or female characters. i don't know... i just don't have the courage to draw men :/

and in the meantime, i still have to read the road rules thing for my L license (yep, 21 is a bit late to start getting a licence, i know). which i'm quite happy to announce that i passed the computer test. HOURRA! i think i'll continue to get my P licence during the next holiday ::shrugs::

and one day, my friend rizal, fellow classmate and blogger asked me to draw something for him. i told him it would take quite some time, and by today i think that's enough time. he wanted something cute, but after drawing previous ones which are all NOT chibis, i guess i can't change the mature ambience of my tools. lol.  

and i ended up with this.

i like the shirt and the hair. haha

i *tried* to draw xiaxue, and... i can't say i don't like it :)

you can say i'm a sucker for xiaxue. plastic or not, she is certainly one of the most beautiful blogger, in addition she has  a fabulous life! that's quite everything i would like to order from fate department. lol.

as one of her fans, it's only natural for me to subscribe to her facebook page, and one day she uploaded this picture. blah blah blah duck-face-we've-all-known yadda yadda i know, but awwww doesn't she look adorable? and all the pink? and whatever warm filter she used on the photo? 


i love this picture.


so i decided that i'd want to draw this one pic. and months after that, i finally did.

i know. it's not nearly eye-catching as the original, but... i like it. maybe it's because the eyes, which i just figured how to make 'em that way. :D 


and maybe because i finally move from my standard 'standing' pose. copying from picture is a really good exercise, coz then the pose of the object will be more lifelike, and the anatomy will be more accurate, too. (which in my case is 'uh' because i really tend to deviate from the original picture. Lol.

cheerios. or cheerio without 's'? i forgot.


p/s : is it wrong for me to post her picture here? i thought as long as i'm not saying anything demeaning, it's okay. correct me if i'm wrong.

letting go

i just need to get away for some time. maybe it's the best thing to do. this isn't my luckiest hunch but i think this time, i'm right. 

yeah i'll miss you, the-sites-i-frequent-for-years-till-now

on a lighter note, i LOATHE it when i tuned in to mtv hits and korean songs popped out of nowhere. i definitely missed the time when i can understand the songs they play in the channel. too bad, people easily succumb to plastic beauty and empty coreography. 

well, me too, actually. but i prefer moves from so you think you can dance and ALL the plastic beauty can only attract me to stare for like, 30 seconds and not the whole 4 minutes video. 

so for me, kpop can suck it.

can you keep my secret?

sometimes i think i will end up being like Leonard's mother. i hope not. O_o yep that got me thinking if i'm much of mom material at all.

yup, that's my fingew tip. i still couldn't affowd to buy a pwopew scannew.


"cwap."


lol i just adores it when Kwipke said it. so cute! 


oh, and wight now, i'm thinking of pushing things a bit just so i can have my ebook weadew by the end of septembew. i hope my planning wont go astway. 


p/s : all the characters mentioned refer to The Big Bang Theory