Sunday, 13 November 2016

Imgur Secret Santa 2016!

I participated in Imgur Secret Santa 2015.
I got a generous SS.
It was Sharon from US and she gave me a buttload of edibles, stockings and toys.
which leads to endless scrolling to check the halal status of the edibles

actually I felt a bit guilty 
because I only give like, a fuckin book to the other person.

*so this year
to save me from tears
i'll give something more special*

so I just signed up for Secret Santa 2016
and I would like to put in a bit more effort
in my gift
to make up for last year

wow the excitement of being a part of this is amah-zing!

Thursday, 3 November 2016

new audio-related thingy purchase

well, not so new. more like, last week. 

so when i stepped onto the bus platform, my hands were already gouging for the earphones, it's almost automatic. so you can imagine the panic, and how the light went out in my eyes when i discovered the compartment was FUCKING EMPTY.

i called my mother, asked her to look for it in the car. although it's not with me, but at least i can be assured that it's safe, somewhere. but noooo, it's nowhere to be found. the last image of it that i can remember is i put it on the shotgun seat, and then *poof* it's black. i really should get my brain checked soon

so, frustrated, i board the bus, and spent the next four friggin' hours in the soul-numbing boredom, and i thanked god that the baby in the bus didn't cry of anything. which was kinda amazing, actually. kudos, little guy's parents.

i had to get a new pair for the journey back home. so i went to the sony outlet in ioi mall, and get this, they were having 10% discount! yay!

so, i got this.

though the split second after i made the purchase, i instantly regret choosing the white one. well i thought it's nice to have some changes (the previous ones were black) but then i remembered the white ones get stained too easily

and the black ones actually looked cooler! self-reminder: whatever earphone you buy after this, choose black! 

and the sound quality is amazing. i can't hear people talking to me after i put it in. i'm a happy camper.

that's all for now.

still hurts

the most superficial thing

is what broke the camel's fucking back

Wednesday, 2 November 2016

hit me like a mothertrucking punch

yesterday was a bad

i just couldn't stop



all the "what if's" and "should have's" are killing me

i feel like giving up

what if i let it all go?

what if all these are not meant to be?

what if it's all in my fucking head?

what if i'm torturing myself with what will never be?

but it's too late, ain't it?

my wings already clipped

it would take years

before i can even contemplate

the possibility of 

getting off the ground for the first time;

the sweet fear of unknowing


a possibility


a possibility